arnoldJanuary 28, 2014 at 8:36 PM (reposted from comments box from last evening)
it's been so very long. my computer is fixed but as the code to the internet is lost i am still on Juj's computer.
the house did not work out, sadly, as i wound up just playing phone tag w the realtor so we are in Alexandria/Fairfax. And we are mostly settled and moving is on our horizon. it is exhausting. every day is exhausting. the tension in this house is exhausting. But for now we have a lovely yard that goes straight out to the woods with the gift of fox(es) and deer who frequent our yard. I have a lil job at a day care just around the corner and hope to find further employment if i can ever get over this asthma attack.
the kids are settling in so the idea of a move depresses them. i think we are all done with moving and i hope Spring with her warmth and sun, the rebirth of plants around us and all helps to sort us out.
I have so much to say, some of which i can't and others which i'll wait for tomorrow to do.
tonight i will try to sleep. I'll try to think good things and positive thoughts and radiate love and peace and prayer and forgiveness. This is becoming increasingly difficult for me. People around me are hurt, are hurting, are being hurt. and i feel helpless and hopeless.
the house did not work out, sadly, as i wound up just playing phone tag w the realtor so we are in Alexandria/Fairfax. And we are mostly settled and moving is on our horizon. it is exhausting. every day is exhausting. the tension in this house is exhausting. But for now we have a lovely yard that goes straight out to the woods with the gift of fox(es) and deer who frequent our yard. I have a lil job at a day care just around the corner and hope to find further employment if i can ever get over this asthma attack.
the kids are settling in so the idea of a move depresses them. i think we are all done with moving and i hope Spring with her warmth and sun, the rebirth of plants around us and all helps to sort us out.
I have so much to say, some of which i can't and others which i'll wait for tomorrow to do.
tonight i will try to sleep. I'll try to think good things and positive thoughts and radiate love and peace and prayer and forgiveness. This is becoming increasingly difficult for me. People around me are hurt, are hurting, are being hurt. and i feel helpless and hopeless.
So there it is. almost a year out and more of the same maudlin bullshit i always type.
tomorrow (i hope) i will write about Joy. i know, you don't believe me. just wait and see.
